Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Crisis

In any good tale of adventure there comes a moment when the characters face a moment of crisis, something that challenges them as they consider whether or not to keep going. Going in, I expected that we would hit a wall somewhere after the first 24 hours of running when we would have to deal with the double fatigue of reduced sleep and tired legs. What I didn't expect was that the crisis would come shortly after I wrote my blog post about our first leg of the run. As we prepared to take the hand off from the other van load of runners, one of our own started throwing up. And she didn't stop. 
Earlier in the week, Amy had nursed her kids through a particularly nasty Norovirus (otherwise known as the stomach flu). That nasty bug had hunkered down and bided its time, waiting until this moment to hit Amy full force. The only thing worse than listening to someone repeatedly empty the contents of their stomach with violent heaves is making that sound yourself. It was awful. Not only did we need to get Amy off the course, we had to figure out what to do about her absence.
Thankfully, we were at one of the checkpoints and were able to work with the relay organizers to get Amy settled until her husband could drive up from Des Moines to bring her home. Initially she thought if she got a hotel room and rode out the worst of her sickness Friday night, she might be able to rejoin us on Saturday and help with the running. There was no way. Not only would that have been logistically complicated, it's no way to recover from a Norovirus.
So we did the only thing we could... we quit. NO! Of course we didn't quit. There was no grand plan, no extended strategy session for figuring out how to finish. We just acknowledged that we were going to have to run a little further, starting with the leg in front of us. We'd each pull 7 miles instead of the 5.5 that we'd been running. It wasn't impossible. But it wasn't easy either. I kept wondering when I'd our car waiting by the side of the road with the next runner. I could do seven miles now, but how would I hold up 24 hours from now when the crisis of compounded fatigue set in. 
The answer to that, it turns out, was easier than it seemed.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

First Leg

The big question that began to loom as the date for the relay got closer and closer was, "are we going to have 12," meaning twelve runners- the maximum number allowed per team. As it turned out the answer to that question was no. We approached enough people to fill out two full teams, but in the end we came up short. We were lucky then that the Relay organizers put us in touch with a group out of the Des Moines area that wanted to do the relay, but didn't have near enough for a team. This group came to be known to us as the Des Moines four. Then, there were three. Until this morning we their existence seemed like an ethereal thing. Now known to us as Tim, Mark, and Amy- they were, until we met up with them at the Floyd Monument simply the (now) Des Moines three. How grateful I am to have them on our team.
We checked in, got our t-shirts (first, what confidence that we'll finish) and heard the orientation from one of the organizers. Then it was time to send Micah out for the first five miles. It took him up and down the steep hills of Glen Ave. and its detour, out Morningside Ave. past the Hwy 20 bypass, past the funeral home and Memorial Park cemetery. We drove out to the 5 mile mark and waited.
It was a beautiful day to run. On the cool side with a gentle breeze. Enough sun to be warm, but enough clouds to create the occasional cover. Micah rolled up the road and handed the GPS tracker to Mark for the next 5 miles. 
In Bronson we parked at a nice little park with a baseball diamond. The van caught up with us and they broke out the frisbee. Meanwhile I was itching to go. Eager to put in my five. The chance came soon enough and I was off, GPS hooked to my shorts, earphones in, Foo Fighters driving me up the first hill with Monkey Wrench. I know my running playlist, know what songs correspond, roughly, with distance.  As I came over the crest of a hill I was only a few songs in but there was my team on the side of the road with another crew. That is one of the great things about this so far- the other teams, the other runners. There are some wonderfully weird and playful people out here with us. I knew I couldn't be at five miles. They had just stopped to cheer me one- which was nice.
I wrapped up the first leg soon enough. The last two runners from our vehicle took their turns and we were done for the next four hours. We diverted up to Correctionville for lunch at the Cosmos Lounge- Reuben sandwich for me. We talked nutrition and beer and strategies for sleep. With bellies full of fried food, we made our way back to the course to check in with the rest of team before finding a spot for a quick nap before taking up the second leg of our trek across Iowa.

Friday, June 7, 2013

Team Telos (to the end)

Late last year, about a month after we brought our son home from Ethiopia, I attended a CREDO event in North Carolina. CREDO began in the Episcopal church as a way of addressing clergy burn-out and was so successful that it was adopted for use in the Presbyterian Church (U.S.A.) by our Board of Pensions. Pastors who attend are asked to examine where they are vocationally, financially, spiritually and with their physical health. It was a great experience and much needed after a particularly draining year both personally and professionally.
Here's the thing when clergy get together, particularly when they get together in a setting like this- so many of us are so grateful for the chance to step away that while we may talk some shop (tell me about your church, how long have you been there, etc.) it's nice to talk about other things, non-church things. In the course of this week I spent some time talking about the book that I'd just finished, Born to Run, and how it had piqued my interest in running. 
I've never been a runner. Didn't run track, or cross country, none of it. What's the old joke, if you see me running you better run too because it means something's chasing me? My preferred method of exercise was in the pool, or on a bike. Then a friend invited me to her boot camp exercise class and I began some more intensive training. That lead me to consider doing my first sprint triathlon. Sprint events are a good way to ease into triathlon. I did my first two days after I turned 40 (can you say, "mid-life crisis?"). It's a ridiculously easy swim, 15 miles on the bike and a 5K. It was the running that intimidated me. Then I met a guy who recommended the book Chi Running. It was revolutionary for me. It took the fear out of running for me.
Back to North Carolina and CREDO. We were sitting around and I struck up a conversation with a fellow pastor about running. We talked events. For me it was triathlon, for her it was Ragnar relays. The relay bit caught my attention because I'd been seeing facebook ads for relay runs in my area and was intrigued. This led to a conversation about Relay Iowa- a 3 day, 2 night run across the state, non-stop. Wouldn't it be fun, we said, to get a group of Presbyterians together and do it as a 12-person team?
That number was important. We're talking 336 miles. While I like running I'm no marathoner, or ultra-runner. But sharing the load, breaking up the miles, that sounded like fun. Well, to me anyway. Finding ten other people to share our interest proved a little more difficult than we imagined. But we gave it our best.
My team co-captain from CREDO, Heather, did a better job at recruiting than I did. Although by my count I talked to no less than eleven people who turned me down for various reasons. Hard to get pastors to take a weekend off in June (wedding season!).
But now here I am the morning of the run. Our team is Team Telos, named for the Greek word for ultimate purpose, or end. There are ten of us, cobbled together. In a way it's a metaphor for the church- a random collection of people drawn together for a common goal. Our goal is to make it to Dubuque. The goal of those called to be the church is the realization of the Kingdom of God on earth, as it is in heaven. Interestingly, our route takes us past Dyersville, IA and the Field of Dreams. "Is this heaven?" "No. It's Iowa." Here we go!

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Essential- Revelation 7:9-17

I was talking to a friend this week about lists.
Lists aren’t my thing,
        at least not like they are for some people.
I’ve been trying to use them more lately
        because I find that the older I get
                the fewer things I seem to be able to hold in my head at the same time.
Still, there’s room for improvement.
I could probably stand to have a list of announcements
        that I’ve been asked to make during worship,
                instead of relying on my memory
                                and then realizing somewhere around the first hymn
                                         that I forgot to share something that needed to be said.
As we were talking,
                I confessed that when I do make a list of things that need to get done,
                                                       I tend to jump on the easy things right away.
That way I can feel like I’ve done something,
                even when I haven’t really done all that much.
The friend I was talking to was just the opposite.
She dives right into the things that are a little harder,
                                so that she can get them out of the way.
Without the more difficult tasks hanging over her,
                she’s free to enjoy the easier things she has to do.
That makes a lot of sense.
When it comes to reading scripture
                that doesn’t tend to be our habit.
Most of the time when we open our bibles,
                                                 if we open our bibles,
                it’s to find something comforting and uplifting-
                                something that will inspire us and make us feel right with God.
We make a bee-line for things like the 23rd Psalm
                                                                and the Beatitudes.
As a consequence,
                the book of the bible that we rarely get around to,
                the one we avoid as much as we can
                                                     is Revelation. 
It’s just so strange
                and fantastic
                and violent-
                       seriously violent.
Maybe if we close one eye,
                and just read the sections like the passage we heard this morning,
                                                              we can find something inspirational.

That part about God wiping every tear,
                                 that sounds good.
There have been a lot of tears shed this week.
It started with marathon bombings in Boston,
                followed by the devastating explosion of a fertilizer plant in Texas,
                                                                     and concluded with a shootout,
                                                                                                     a manhunt,
                                                                                  and the eventual capture
                                                                                  of one of the bombing suspects.
And that’s just the national news.
Many more local,
                personal tragedies
                                played out this week as well.
Thursday night came word of the untimely death
                of a local young man
                                who just graduated from East High last year.
With all that,
                we might very well go scrambling for something in scripture
                                                        to make us feel better about it all,
                                something to comfort us in our grief and distress.
We saw it the Sunday following the attacks of September 11,
                                                    people looking for answers,
                                                    people looking for solace.
I saw it this past Thursday night,
                young people struggling to answer the question,
                                                                              “why?”
Why this young man,
                with so much life ahead of him?
We can turn to platitudes,
                we can turn to gentle and reassuring words.
But somehow it feels inadequate,
                somehow it just doesn’t seem to rise to the level
                                                                        of the grief,
                                                                        anger,
                                                                        and dread that fills us.
Earlier this week I was talking to someone about the marathon bombings
                                   and we confessed to each other
                                                that we had been deliberately avoiding
                                                much of the news coming out of Boston.
You know,
                it isn’t as though there aren’t bombings like this
                                that take place on a regular basis in other parts of the world.
For over two years the nation of Syria and its people
                have been quite literally torn apart by the violence there.
But that’s nearly half a world away.
Boston is just one time zone over.
Boston is just a little too close for comfort.
In talking about it,
                we realized that we were doing what we could to maintain the distance,
                                                          to keep the pain and the fear at arms-length
                                                          to keep it from touching us.
Spiritually, that’s been the strategy
                that more reason-minded Christians have employed
                                                        in dealing with Revelation.
This is a book that is filled with calamity.
Huge, hyperbolic metaphors
                filled with swords,
                                 blood,
                                 violence
                                 and disaster.
Beasts rise up,
                stars fall from the sky.
It’s all just too much for folks like us
                who like to keep our world
                                a little more orderly than that.
So we keep it at arms-length
                and look down our noses at the overly literal,
                               and heavily embellished readings of this book
                                                            by people like Hal Lindsey
                                                                           and Tim LeHaye
                                                that would have us cower in fear
                                                       at the suggestion that we might be left behind.
That may be all well and good,
                Until the violence,
                                  bloodshed,
                                  and disaster find us,
                until they get past our stiff arm
                                and are only a hair’s breadth away
                                and we find ourselves staring into the chaotic void
                                                that opens up and threatens to swallow us.
When that happens,
                suddenly the sharp contrast
                                and dark strokes
                                of a world falling apart don’t look all that crude any more.
When that happens,
                we recognize something
                                that Revelation has been trying to show us all along-
                                                that there is a spiritual battle going on;
                                                that the powers and principalities of this world
                                                                                are nothing short of demonic.
How else do you explain a 19-year-old kid-
                                                        a KID-
                who by all accounts was a polite,
                        good-natured student athlete;
                how else do you explain someone like that
                                getting swept up in a violent plot
                                                to destroy innocent lives?
How else do you explain the kind of evil
                that whispers in the dark
                       and has someone believe
                               that the only way to end the pain that they are feeling
                                                                          is to take their own life?
How else do you explain something as insidious as crystal meth,
                                                                                or cancer,
                or the kind of profit-first, people-second thinking
                                that leads to the explosion of deep water oil platforms
                                                                                    and fertilizer plants?
It may not look the way they show it in the movies.
It may not come with scary make-up
                and state-of-the-art digital effects,
                                but make no mistake the battle is real-
                                        and we are fooling ourselves if we think that our money,
                                                                                                         our position,
                                                                                                       our education,
                                                                                                our healthy lifestyle,
                                                                                           any of it can protect us
                                         from becoming collateral damage
                                                                    in a world bent on its own destruction.
And that’s where Revelation has something else to show us,
                something beyond the frightening
                                                  and violent imagery
                                                  that it is known for.
Prior to our reading this morning,
                the seven seals on the scroll of God
                                have been progressively broken by the slain Lamb,
                                                             the only one worthy to take the scroll.
As each is broken,
                the destruction of the world intensifies.
We cannot sit and pretend it isn’t happening.
To see what God would have us see
                means that we cannot turn a blind eye
                                to the pain and struggle of the world around us.
But then something extraordinary happens-
                we are back before the throne of God,
                                and witness a crowd beyond number,
                                                          a crowd of people from every nation,
                                                                                                        tribe,
                                                                                                        people
                                                                                                        and language.
There is no national exceptionalism here-
                only the vast sea of humanity
                                that has known the hardship of this spiritual war
                                                                                that knows no boundary.
As a song I’ve been singing recently goes,
                “Do you hear the people sing/ lost in the valley of the night/
                  it is the music of a people who are rising to the light/
                  for the wretched of the earth/ there is a flame that never dies/
                  even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise.”
Seven seals, and by the time the seventh is broken
                                they stand before the throne of God,
                                                robed in white
                                                and waving palm branches,
                                                singing and worshipping God.
Now I don’t want to lay on the guilt here-
                it’s an occupational hazard sometimes,
                                but don’t you see what this is about?
In the midst of the spiritual war that rages around us,
          in the midst of a world that is almost certainly doing battle for our souls,
                                                                                           we need worship.
It isn’t just something to do when we can get around to it,
        if we wake up on time,
              before we go to brunch and get on with our lives.
Worship is the essential practice in the heat of battle
                that helps to secure where our truest loyalties lie,
                                                             but more than that,
                worship claims us and assures us
                                when it begins to look like we’re losing,
                                when the bombs go off
                                and the death count rises
                                and we get the phone call or the text
                                                that causes our hearts to drop;
                worship is the essential practice of a people
                               who are rising to the light,
                               who will not be claimed by the darkness
                               but who, as the confession puts it,
                                         “belong body and soul to our loving savior Jesus Christ.”
In the act of worship
                we find our shelter in the storm that rages around us. 
In the act of worship
                we feast on the bread of life
                                in a world hungry for meaning.
In the act of worship
                we are led to the water that gives us life
                                                and washes us clean.
In the act of worship
                we return to the source of our lives
                                and shout for joy even in the midst of sorrow and grief,
                                                that even when it feels like the battle is lost-
                                                                                the war has already been won.
Alleluia, amen.